Thursday, July 05, 2007
MY biggest REGRET (listening to sometimes when we touch)
I’ve been itching to talk at length about my biggest regret up to date for days!!!
My biggest regret is a guy. His name is Dino. He is the sweetest guy I have ever known and liked, not just his looks but also his personality. I am easily attracted to people and I usually like their looks more than their personality, such is the honest shallow life of mine. Yes, you read it correctly; I am the shallowest person that I know of (after my best friend).
Unlike most guys I know, Dino is kind, I know it sounds icky for a guy to be called kind, but he truly cares about how others feel. And one thing I cannot resist is kindness. Despite the many times I had done stupid silly things that hurt, he never turn his back on me. Its probably really silly to talk about all this now that it is all in the past and I’d probably have done the same things if given a chance to make things right.
Even so, I still couldn’t help the way I felt the other when I woke up from my nap thinking of him. It’s like somewhere deep in my soul, I know I am missing a part of something really good.
He’s attached now, so even as I resent that fact, there’s nothing I can do. Perhaps I can wait until another some one special comes along. But then again as My best friend would say, he’s only attached not married. And this would be my reply, so what if he’s married?
Really, when you think about it, life is so freaking short. Why bother so much with what’s right and wrong as long as you’re able to live with your conscience? I know it’s easier to live with a guilty conscience, than it is to live without Dino.
But then, of course, I’m just saying it. Perhaps there would be one day when I would meet him again. And truly, I look forward to it.