PLEASE READ THESE TERMS:
[#o1] Welcome to mah bloggy
[#o2] Do not rip anything off
[#o3] Whats here remains here
[#o4] Tag before you leave
[#o5] No vulgarities
[#o6] Leave if you're unhappy

JOANIE I am pretty much like every other girl. Perhaps not that much. I like thinking for my own. One thing I can't tolerate is for people to tell me they know me. I find that terribly arrogant. bolditalicstrikestrong

credits
ME. kynzgerl
CODES. SHOTGUN
BRUSHES. 1 2 3 4
IMAGES. 1 2 3

ARCHIVES
August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007

♥SAM ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend ♥friend

TAGBOARD HERE
cbox is recomended

Finally… it’s over!

My mid-semester tests are over, I rejoiced at the prospect of some peace and freedom. I doubt I am going to do very well for my tests seeing that I hardly studied, but hey! What’s life without hope? Erm… a hopeless life. Ha-ha. Nah! I’d think life without hope is dark, very dark.

I find it weird, and I am not sure how to express this thought of mine. But I’ll try. There are these few people whose name I shan’t mention, who make promises but don’t keep up with them. It makes me really pissed but I’m not going to do anything about it. Call it pride, but when you get bloody turned down so many damned times, it IS enough. I’m very sick of taking initiative. But I’ll be here when you decide to make up to me.

But well, on another note, I realise that friendship/relationship is something you really have to work at, to keep up or fall behind. It is very tiring when you’re the only one making an effort; after all it takes two hands to clap. I am willing to give (I’m not that selfish), but hey, I’m sure there’s a limit, right? No? Oh well, but I am really tired of trying to keep up only to fall back time after time.

I’m sure there are other people out there who want me. –pouts prettily- That sounded rightfully pathetic! Hahaha. And I think I did quite well expressing my jumbled up thoughts, huh.

Anyway, Shekha did something really sweet today.

The test is over, everyone rushing for their bags, even I was doing that. I looked up saw Ferhan gesturing to me to help him get his bag, I was hesitating, whether to ask him to get it himself or to help him when Shekha came from behind and asked how I did for the test. I don’t know, at the moment, I felt it meant a lot that she bothered to ask because everyone is rushing for their damn bags. I decided to help Ferhan and in that split second, I felt Shekha giving me a hug from behind and told me she missed me. I was both stunned and very pleased, I turned and thank her. =) what she did was a simple act of kindness and affection but the sincerity in it, at that moment just somehow made its way to my heart. And, that really made me day.

Alright, I think I will end here, on a very sweet and pleasant note. :)

Torn…

I sat in front of my computer typing out something really sweet and romantic, an observation about love which I honestly wanted to share with everyone. But… I had to think about my creative writing assignments! Dang…

So I had no choice, absolutely none, but to save it for my assignment. Never mind! I shall share something equally interesting even more so, in my opinion.

I read when I came across this:

Ruthlessness sprang from his mind, not twisted by insanity. He wasn’t mad, in fact, was cold-bloodedly sane. Simply, very simply, evil.

What’s normal? What’s insanity? What’s evil?

I got this from an email and would like to share.

To realize the value of a sister:
Ask someone who doesn't have one.
(Ask me! I’ll tell you it’s like growing up missing something you never had.)

To realize the value of ten years:
Ask a newly divorced couple.

To realize the value of one year:
Ask a student who has failed a final exam.

To realize the value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
(This really got me; I find it really sad to even think of the possibility of it happening, though it does.)

To realize the value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize the value of one minute:
Ask a personwho has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize the value of one-second:
Ask a personwho has survived an accident...

To realize the value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics

To Timothy, I give my love freely…

As I sit here in front of my computer crunching at my Cadbury’s Crunchies, I struggle with ways I shall break this news to you about my new love, Timothy.

I know this must be pretty sudden for some of you, but when love comes… it comes without a warning. =) It is only been… well, today’s the second day. Everything seems new, a little curious and more than a little scary. I haven’t had much experience in this area, giving my love freely and really caring for someone, as sweet as he is. In fact, he is officially only my third, but for his kind it’s still my first. And, above all, he has already gotten my parents’ approval.

I think this is a very promising start and I do hope so that everything would go well and this love could blossom into something more. =) wish us well. =)

I bought him yesterday from a pet store, he was so skittish and nervous, but when he was in my palm, filling it up fully, I can’t help but feel a gush of warm fuzzy love for him. It is a very nice feeling, having it stay there in my palm, without fear that he would bite or escape. He’s not yellow, but a rich, very rich brown.

Guinea pigs are generally very gentle by nature, they don’t bite as hamsters do and they are not as active. But the thing I realise about them is, they are all really nervous and has a tendency to get skittish. (Sounds a little like me at times, not that I am in the least GENTLE)

Initially, I wanted to name it Bob, but my mum complained that it is not an easy name to call, so we change it to Adam. But thinking it through again, it might not be nice having ourselves called the Adam’s family. So in the end we settled for Timothy.

Just did some lame test:

I love licking ice cream cones:
Here is the analysis:
You're a socialite. You go out to a party frequently and hang around with lots of people. You're very enthusiastic, ambitious and love challenges.

This is interesting, why I’d love someone:
Here is the reason:
You think he or she is a very smart one. You love his/her brain.

Wow this is freaky, where I’d place a third eye, at my heart:
Here is the analysis:
You are scared of being cheated on by others and don't want to be disappointed. That's why you seem to be contented with unrequited love. (I won't know what to do with a returned love.)

Wow is this thing psychic or what?:
Here is the analysis:
It would be very difficult for you to fall in love with someone. But when you love, honesty is your first priority. You are an emotional person. (The honesty part is important.)

Random mind wandering…

I was just minutes ago checking out Jesse Bradford. Goodness gracious, he IS still so freaking HOT!!! AoooooGa… you know how that wolf went. ;)

While checking him out I was chatting with my lil cousin and my friend, and also listening to my favourite radio station, which is Gold 90 fm. I love the songs they play, so much.

Recently, I went reading Star Blogs at stomp.com.sg. I enjoy reading May and Choy’s entries, their intelligence and warmth ooze from their words. You should read it too. While we are at this, might I add I have no idea what’s all the big hoo-ha is about, with Xia Xue. Her entries are painstakingly cute and very pretentious. At least, Dawn has a face that one could easily fall in love with and her brain is obviously not small, going by the pretty face standard.

I have been toying with the idea of going back to yoga since the last time I quit. So yesterday when my friend told me she’s picking it up, I immediately asked to join her! How cool is that, going back to yoga and my ‘ohms’… =)

I realised, recently, that telling people who I am, isn’t going to make me who I think I am. It will only make me sound sadly in need of confirmation and assurance. So from now on I will refrain from telling anyone who I think I am. Don’t even bother asking, who do I think I am, it is just plain dumb.

I have known for a long time now that to know a person, one has to know his preference and believes, and to understand someone, one has to know why that’s his preference or believes. But only until I realised that telling people who I think I am isn’t going to work that I finally understood what it means to really know and understand someone.

I am what I want, can?!

Break (went shopping with Derek)

Right now, I’m freaking tired right now! But I’d like to finish up this entry filled with my random thoughts.

I was shopping in town, around city hall and orchard, been walking so much now my legs feels limpy. Ha-ha. I saw lots of hotties today and it is so much more fun today after I made up my mind, not to be so self conscious and try to have and be fun.

Anyway, I saw this lovely shirt from ZARA, but they don’t have my size and the thing is they don’t have it at every ZARA, so I went from Marina Square to Orchard TAKA then Wheelock for absolutely no reason.

There’s this thing about ZARA which really pisses me off. Their sale assistances, mostly Malay girls, are so arrogant and their attitude sinks to high heaven. Every time I enter expecting a change, I get disappointed leaving the shop. At least now I see some Chinese working there. Hope there’d be an improvement soon, if not, I swear I’m going to freaking lodge a bloody complain.

I’m slowly zoning out.

I love my bed. I love my room, my sanctuary. I love goodness… I need my sleep.

Lastly…

Supposedly, NS separates the men from the boys. Ever wondered, what exactly separates the women from the girls?

Cinderella and her TWO STEP SISTERS

As we all know the story how Cinderella was saved by her prince, there were just a few facts that were twisted, just so that her story would appear more like a fairy tale. And so were her step-sisters’ story.

Once upon a time, Cinderella was often bullied by her step-sisters, Bella and Rapunzel, not because of their jealousy of her beauty, because they are beautiful ladies in their own rights, but over the mere fact that Cinderella has such a nice and loving father.

About the ball which her step-mother and step-sisters refused to let her attend while her father was away, was actually the engagement ball of Rapunzel to the only Prince of Eagle at the time. But Cinderella went anyway and met the man of her dreams, the Prince of Eagle and the Prince of Eagle was equally taken to her as he had never seen anyone so filthy.

He thought she was special, a damsel in distressed, waiting for him, her knight, or rather her Prince in shinny armor to save her from all those filth. She thought he would never be hers, but wanted to leave him something to remember her by, so she deliberately left her glass slippers on the stairways when she rushed to leave the ball before the step family discovers her.

By then, the Prince realised his folly, that the engagement to Rapunzel was a mistake, he manage to break it off before the solemnizing of their marriage. After which, he set off over mountains and seas, and with the secret help of Cinderella’s father, who recognized the glass slippers, the Prince of Eagle finally found Cinderella.

When they met again, they were overjoyed to see each other. They got married shortly after and lived happily ever after.

So what happened after Cinderella’s happily ever after? Rapunzel was so embarrassed and bitter after the broken engagement; she left for a far away tower with her servant. Cinderella’s step-mother so angry with her husband’s betrayal for helping Cinderella and not her own Rapunzel left him to marry snow white’s father. Don’t you ever wonder how there could be so many wicked step-mothers? They are actually one and the same!

That leaves us with Bella and her step-father. Bella was overjoyed to finally have a nice father all to herself, having been deprived of a paternal figure since her mother had given birth to her.

However, good times don’t last long before you get your happily ever after. Bella’s step-father was kidnapped by the well-known and much feared beast that live at the top of the hill in a huge mansion. Bella was distraught.

She set out alone to the hill; her fear of losing her step-father overrides her fear for the beast. She met the beast and swore silently to herself she had never seen anything quite so ugly. She shoved her thoughts aside and set out to charm the beast into setting her step-father free. But the beast would not relent to anything except for a one-for-one exchange, her for her step-father. And in that exchanged, he meant marriage. She agreed.

Her step-father was so touched by her selflessness decided to stay with her for as long as he lives, since he had no one to return home to anyway. At least now he has his step-daughter and well… the beast.

Surprisingly, the beast was not as bad as he first seems after they got to know one another. As they say, love grows and in this case, it certainly did. As their love grew, the beast appearance improved. The beast grew shorter and no longer seemed scary, though he was still tall and has a powerful presence. Before too long, he looked just like he had before he was cursed by an evil woman, Bella’s mother.

He revealed that the kidnapped, exchange and marriage was initially just a form of revenged but it didn’t seem like her mother cared anyway. Instead he got a perious gift out of the whole story, he got Bella and her love, and well… his father-in-law. And so, with that, they lived happily ever after.

Back to Rapunzel who left home for a far away tower, to hide her humiliation from everyone she knew with the exception of her servant whom she had brought along to serve her but refused to let the servant into the tower as she wanted to be alone. Contrary to what everyone knew, she was not lock up by a witch, she locked herself up, unless you do think her a witch, a beautiful witch who was about to have long beautiful hair, or so they said.

And initially she had not used her hair to get what she want from outside tower, she used a rope. She’d lower the rope to her servant so to get food and thing she needed, like those philosophy books. Did you know she had a Masters for philosophy? Bet you didn’t. So she spent a lot of time alone honing her philosophy to make up for those times she had set them aside to prepared for her marriage and engagement, which her step-sister could now take over without doing a thing. Alright, take a deep breath; she was not supposed to dwell on it!

Eventually, her rope broke and since her hair was long enough, she decided to make them useful. She lowered her hair daily to get her necessities, eventually, her beautiful hair tore leaving it really short. She had no choice but to leave the tower.

She traveled wide and far, and finally found a village where everyone learned philosophy, she decided to join them for the rest of her life. So she marry a villager and lived happily ever after in the land of philosophies.

Whoever said you can only find happily ever after with a prince? Bella found love with a beast and Rapunzel married a villager and lived happily ever after.

bored...

I need to meet new people, I’m sick of people I see day in and out, I need more life in my life.

Below is an article I got from MSN, it is a funny article, light hearted with information that are good to know.

Eat Right, Look Good

Five foods that fight the effects of aging.

By Brian Good, Men's Health; Photograph by Anna Palma

If you plan to have great sex for the rest of your life, you want to look good doing it, right? Add a couple of servings a week of these fountain-of-youth foods.

Sunflower Seeds
These salty wonders have the highest natural vitamin E content of any food around. "Vitamin E is one of the most important nutrients around for looking younger," says Barry Swanson, Ph.D., a professor of food science at Washington State University. "No antioxidant is more effective at fighting the aging effects of free radicals."

Spinach and Beans
Researchers in Australia, Indonesia and Sweden studied the diets of 400 elderly men and women, and found that those who ate the most leafy green vegetables and beans had the fewest wrinkles. The reason? Spinach and beans are full of compounds that help prevent and repair wear and tear on your skin cells as you get older.

Grape Juice
Besides providing protection from heart attack and stroke, grape juice can also help keep your middle-aged skin from sagging. "Grapes are filled with antioxidant polyphenols that help to keep your skin flexible and elastic," says Swanson.

Sweet Potatoes
Overexposure to the sun is one of the primary reasons men age prematurely. But sweet potatoes may help to fight sun damage. European researchers recently found that pigments from beta-carotene-rich foods—like sweet potatoes and carrots—can build up in your skin, helping to prevent damage from ultraviolet rays.

Cheese
No wonder rats always look so young. "Cheese is one of the best foods you can eat for your teeth," says Matthew Messina, D.D.S., an American Dental Association spokesman. "It's a good source of calcium, to keep your teeth strong. Plus, eating cheese can lower the levels of bacteria in your mouth and keep your teeth clean and cavity-free," he says. Dr. Messina recommends eating at least two servings of block cheese every week.

This the link to the above article:
http://health.msn.com/dietfitness/articlepage.aspx?cp-documentid=100149218&GT1=8816

Anyway, I’m thinking of getting my own private online diary. It gets a bit scary sometimes when you want to bitch about someone you have to think very carefully, if you really want to, since this is pretty much open to public. It isn’t so nice to have some one stumble upon the bitching entry.

Hmmm… Think about it.

I was looking for cases for my family law assignment and I came across this bit and I thought it was quite meaningful:

“Would-be adulterers, are reminded, be it a man or a woman that those who wish to flirt with the wife or husband of another person or commit adultery while the marriage is still in legal existence will have to face the legal consequences of having to pay damages if it is established that the cause of the breakdown of the marriage is due to the adulterous relationship. Marriage is a sacred union and parties should strive to maintain this sacred union for life as any breakdown in the marriage will have an adverse effect on the children who are innocent parties. Therefore, third parties should stay away from attempting to interfere or enter into any kind of immoral relationship with the wife or husband of another person which no doubt is likely to cause the breakdown of the marriage of a happily married couple (see p 340B-C).”

How nice it is to have a marriage, one you’re willing to work at together with a loved one. That’s commitment, the willingness to make things work even when things get rough. It is also comforting to know that the law is there to help you protect your marriage and family.