Friday, December 15, 2006
Finally… it’s over!
My mid-semester tests are over, I rejoiced at the prospect of some peace and freedom. I doubt I am going to do very well for my tests seeing that I hardly studied, but hey! What’s life without hope? Erm… a hopeless life. Ha-ha. Nah! I’d think life without hope is dark, very dark.
I find it weird, and I am not sure how to express this thought of mine. But I’ll try. There are these few people whose name I shan’t mention, who make promises but don’t keep up with them. It makes me really pissed but I’m not going to do anything about it. Call it pride, but when you get bloody turned down so many damned times, it IS enough. I’m very sick of taking initiative. But I’ll be here when you decide to make up to me.
But well, on another note, I realise that friendship/relationship is something you really have to work at, to keep up or fall behind. It is very tiring when you’re the only one making an effort; after all it takes two hands to clap. I am willing to give (I’m not that selfish), but hey, I’m sure there’s a limit, right? No? Oh well, but I am really tired of trying to keep up only to fall back time after time.
I’m sure there are other people out there who want me. –pouts prettily- That sounded rightfully pathetic! Hahaha. And I think I did quite well expressing my jumbled up thoughts, huh.
Anyway, Shekha did something really sweet today.
The test is over, everyone rushing for their bags, even I was doing that. I looked up saw Ferhan gesturing to me to help him get his bag, I was hesitating, whether to ask him to get it himself or to help him when Shekha came from behind and asked how I did for the test. I don’t know, at the moment, I felt it meant a lot that she bothered to ask because everyone is rushing for their damn bags. I decided to help Ferhan and in that split second, I felt Shekha giving me a hug from behind and told me she missed me. I was both stunned and very pleased, I turned and thank her. =) what she did was a simple act of kindness and affection but the sincerity in it, at that moment just somehow made its way to my heart. And, that really made me day.
Alright, I think I will end here, on a very sweet and pleasant note. :)
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I am pretty much like every other girl. Perhaps not that much. I like thinking for my own. One thing I can't tolerate is for people to tell me they know me. I find that terribly arrogant.
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