Saturday, October 28, 2006
I LOVE!!!Right now, I feel
so much passion whelmed up in me, and I’d say it feels good to be alive! I’m in the mood for a
solid scarlet red.
It is the aftermath of doing something right, finally. I do love my choir very much, I suppose, it is just the conflict that comes with responsibility of my position, which I abhor. Sometimes, I just forgot how good it could be, learning as a group and singing as a group.
Today, someone asked how I came about my presidency. I didn’t quite know how to answer. I can’t exactly claim it to be merit as I hardly know music. But I do know I was chosen because I am always there and perhaps I have an image of what a leader should be? I don’t know and sometimes, I still feel insecure about my position, but I’ve become more comfortable in my role as an overall head.
After being appointed to be the president of my club, I was invited to a number of leadership talks. I find it really tough, listening to the speakers’ perception of how a good leader should be. I had no previous experience of being an actual leader, so listening to all their experience, really disheartened me. I felt an extremely high expectation being put on me, even though it was never said that I should be a good leader.
In my own ways, I have overcome my petty insecurities with support of my committee members. People came, people left. One thing remind constant, I never wanted to quit because I know learning to be a good leader is one lesson in life we can’t learn vicariously through someone else. We have to learn it through the hard way, by our own hands on experience. And a good leader never abandons, a good leader persevered and succeed, I hope.
There are no absolute rights or wrongs in life. It all lies on our perception.
I like it that we all think differently and that I could think. I love thinking about everything, about nothing. And I love the word perception, such a precious little word, which makes us all different, special and unique to someone.
“Some people are beautiful universally. Some people are beautiful only in the eyes of people who love them.” A truthful quote from a book I came across but can’t remember which.
I came across something philosophic in the book store today, a Japanese saying, but I can’t remember it word for word. But it meant this: if you read but can’t think for yourself, you’re better off not reading. So true, and now I’m still in the process of learning to think for myself.
Anyway, I often come across people who say that their motto in life is all or nothing. I’d rather take all that I have been offered or settle for just the best of everything. I don’t see a point in having to have everything nor do I see a point in denying myself anything,
Constantly working to be a better person, a better
mind, body & soul.
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JOANIE
I am pretty much like every other girl. Perhaps not that much. I like thinking for my own. One thing I can't tolerate is for people to tell me they know me. I find that terribly arrogant.
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