Saturday, September 09, 2006
Finding the right kind of BalanceStop deluding yourself! We are all jugglers in a circles. Trying to Juggle: family, friends, school (in my case), and many other obligations... Just when I thought I've finally found it, what I said in the past few days came back to bite my ass!
I was supposed to be at a chalet few days back which I've paid. But I decided to turn it down because I just wasn't in the right kind of mood to socialize. That's not all, if I had decided to go, I'd have to help out in some decoration for a birthday party of a friend. Come on, you've gotta be kidding, I paid and I have to work? Isn't the chinese saying, Give whatever you can, money or effort? Well, I've given the money and effort I've none to spare.
I said something to that effect in an sms to a good friend and somehow someone whom that sms wasn't intended to read it, read it. Well, that is the kind of rude surprises I can honestly live without. So I heard he was pretty angry about it, seeing that he has an infatuation on the birthday girl. Hmmm... I really shouldn't be bothered by it since neither the guy who read the message nor the birthday girl are my close friend or good friend, but I can't help feeling indignant about the whole thing. After all, that sms wasn't meant for him! But well... c'est la vie.
I'll be the first to admit, I'm more of a taker and not much of a giver. So if you ever expect more than you deserve from me, you're in for a rude surprise. But I can be one of the most loyal friend and confidant, that much I can say for myself. I will not hesitate to stand up for a friend whom I think is wronged and I will always, always stand by you. In my own way, I will even show you where you stand in my life, I can be nice simply because I love you as a person, I can be cold and distant to those I hold in secret contempt or if I feel uncomfortable with you, but that doesn't mean I don't like you.
Having said all that, I just want to say that my Best Cousin, Sam, is one of the most generous person I've ever known. And she makes me want to be a better person and be more generous. =) A good thing 'cos people you love should always bring out the best in you.
This world rocks because of the rude surprises, to show me, what a sturdy source of energy Sam has always been in my life. Thank God, in my case
Mother Nature. ;-) A joke only we know.
Working towards the better person that I want to be,
A strong Mind, Body & Soul.
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JOANIE
I am pretty much like every other girl. Perhaps not that much. I like thinking for my own. One thing I can't tolerate is for people to tell me they know me. I find that terribly arrogant.
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